Being a woman SUCKS!

Being a woman really sucks sometimes. I often wonder what it would be like to avoid the mental breakdowns that make me seem like I belong in a mental institution. Even when it is enevitable that your time of the month is coming, it never seems to get easier. Men seem to have it so much simpler. They do have moodiness sometimes, but it is never as bad as a womans. They can fight and get over it; its done they are all best buds again; yet, when women fight they are just awful. They will talk behind each others backs, hold grudges, and more often than not, they will never be friends again.

My hormonal battle has been going on for a long time; ever since I had my second child it seems as if my life has just become an uncertainty of moods shifts and skin breakouts depending on what time of the month it is. I have been diagnosed with adult ADD and I have wondered many times, "could I be bipolar?" But, now as I get older, the mood shifts seem to coincide with my cycle and its just so awful. I wonder if I am only ovulating every other month, because I seem to have a good month and then a bad month, but I can never ever get by without PMS before I start. Even if it is only a day.

I have made an ass of myself so many times because of the person I become under stress and during PMS. It never fails that I am around my husbands family and I get all hormonal. What is up with that?

I have tried birth control pills, but that either made me gain weight, sad, or even more moody. I am currently trying to do Bio identical hormone replacement therapy, but it seems like a never ending process. It has taken a few years to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel with the treatment. They said my progesterone levels were at a 2, yes a 2 on day 23. No wonder I feel like total crap before I start and my testosterone levels are around 20, which is pretty low. I am just too young for this crap. I am so hopeful that the treatment will help. I have not started it yet, but the compounding pharmacy thinks I should get progesterone and testosterone and this might help. I have prayed and prayed for help; for someone to help me with this imbalance and I am just so pessimistic that it will be another lost cause.